I miss running. I miss being one of the few people on the road or trail with the sun barely rising and the sound of the ocean on my right or left. I miss the feeling of power in my legs or conquering a steep hill. I miss saying good morning or hello to fellow runners who have woken up at the wee hours of dawn and ventured out the door like me, focused on the same goals. I miss knowing that with each step I take, I become fitter, stronger, and more grounded.
I have been unable to run even slow and easy without feeling some weakness in my hamstring or back upper right leg. There has been a general lingering soreness and minor aches here and there, which is definitely not normal for me. Admittedly, I'm feeling a little down because I can't do what I love and what instantly gives me a mood boost. Forget alcohol and everything else: running is my high and a major stress reliever and now I'm forced to sit out and try to find excitement in riding a stationary bike or bear a mere 30 minutes on the elliptical. I haven't even been inspired to write my follow-up post about the Carlsbad Marathon.
I'm signed up for quite a few half marathons in these next few months, but I'm not sure if I will be able to run all of them. One is this coming weekend, and I don't think my legs will be back to 100% for me to run it. One of the hardest things for a runner to do is allowing themselves to recover when all they want to do is run.
Other than this minor setback, I'm focusing on school, home projects, and getting ready to go back to sea duty. I have to psyche myself up to prepare for ship life and deployment. For once, I'm considering what will happen to this space when I'm gone. Should I schedule posts in advance? How many scheduled posts will occur each month as I will not have access or time to dedicate to writing here while I'm deployed or out to sea? How am I going to make the time to write in my actual journal? It's difficult for me to remember what I did a month ago if I don't have that crap written down or have a picture of it. These are some of the silly things I've been thinking about whenever I come to this space. Anyone have any suggestions?